Off day

the weather is getting warm… perhaps that is why it is getting pretty suffocating here… Perhaps why i love to work is because it takes me away from things that i do not want to deal with. Or perhaps the nature of the job gives me time off for solidarity, just me, my vacuum cleaner and 16 toilet bowls. Perhaps all is not to change, what i was before, is what i am now, and what i will be in the future. Spaces differs, environment changes, but the self, if aware, always remains intact, even as the self changes, the change manifests upon the self and perhaps that is what is called the “same old brand new you”…

I wish this trip can take my mind off more, wish that i can feel more of the tranquility and peace that is embedded within the canyons, the age old wisdom that seems to flow out, looking at us, frowning upon us, fearing for us…

 

Grand Canyon

Right, this is kinda going to be a short entry.. it’s 11.05pm over here and orientation is 8am tmr morning… It’s a tiring day today, and i got kinda cranky i think.. u guys must ask the other two.. but i was sleepy la…like really tired.. maybe it’s the time zone, the altitude.. or all the americana food that i have to consume.. we bought the heating rod today.. cool, but slow.. and i keep thinking tht i’ll get electrocuted.. haha.. Finally saw the Canyon.. and it’s like.. more than words.. haha.. alright, signing off now, really wanna update our US blog, but i’m kinda not proficient with flickr and all tht stuff, i can volunteer to write though, much to the agony of all readers.. haha..

 

Live from Phoenix Sky Harbour International Airport

It has been a long and seemingly tiring flight… we’re wondering how can this be cuz we did nothing but eat and sleep and watch inflight entertainment. Turns out that Eva Air is not half as bad as i thought it to be, cuz got online movies to watch.. so in the 17 hour flight i watched, 27 Dresses, Jumper, Le Grand Chef and Dan in Real Life… mich and YL watched Bucket List.. but i wasnt really keen on getting all sad and teary over 2 old man dying.. yea.. but Le Grand Chef was kinda sad..

So my first time on US Airways.. sigh. my luggage broke.. like first day lor.. kinda sian diao, but no choice, break liao mah… So we went to the Baggage service centre to ask what can they do for me…. “manufacture fault” they cant pay for it.. but i got a $25 off for the next flight with US Airways ..and free tape to tape up my bag that is kinda falling apart now.. hopefully Walmart has cheap cheap luggage for me to buy.. dunno la.. no luggage luck today like at first it was overloaded then now this.. took some photos and going through the insurance later to see what i can get.

Well, we were contemplating to find a hotel room cuz it’s really tiring, and it’ll be nice to have a place that we can really sleep properly, but then..how to go? So we decided to stay here till the morn and take our bus up to flagstaff where we already reserved a room for the night before heading up to South Rim.. So, at LAX, i happily called the grand canyon hostel to confirm my booking… and we ended up confusing one another.. well, i think i was the confused one, and he kinda knew that i was confused cuz i finished a whole string of where i am now, when do i want the room, when did i book the room, what my name was.. and the guy at the other side of the phone is like totally SILENT. He asked if we wanted “Dorm” .. i TOTALLY couldnt catch it lah.. me -> “eh..i’m sorry? come again??”… “oh.. no no, we want PRIVATE..”.. and i gave up and told him that i’m so confused with the time zone thingy!!! and that i’ll see him on 6th May.. and he’s like, ” yea.. i’ll see u guys tomorrow”…*silence on my end*… *dawns*.. “OH.. it’s TOMORROW.. ok, this is so confusing..” he gave a hearty laugh, i thought i was being totally silly.. so we said our goodbyes and see ya tomorrows..

(At this pt of time.. michelle and YL are asleep on the “couch”.. KT.. u reading?? T_T.. hahah.. also nothing to do la.. but here got FREE WIRELESS LOR… how cool.. but fuji is mad la.. his task bar is missing..)

oh.. our first actual meal in US, Pizzas.. nothing amazing.. but their pizza is BIG can.. we bought 2 to share.. but seriously i dun think i have trouble eating one all by myself.. photos have to be uploaded on our blog later bah..

People here (ok.. this guy walk to and fro like 4 times le.. i swear.. cant he juz sit down?).. well, people here are friendly bah… they like to talk to strangers i feel, and arent they afraid that we cant speak English? from LA to Phoenix, we have talked to random Americans, from the emmigration security..(whose vocab was generally, ” Wow, that’s awesome, you guys are going to the canyon, that’s like awesome! it’s like wooow..awesome..like…”..) to the lady who sat beside us during the waiting area in transit, to the guy who asked if my luggage was lost too, and started telling us like how the airlines damaged his scuba gear and they paid for it…so they’ll probably pay for mine ..which they didnt!) they are a friendly bunch hor??? And this Afro-American who walked over a few minutes ago to ask if we’ve got extra double A batteries???? Blase? non, ils ne vont pas??

The coward me is pretty much afraid that they are still pretty ethnocentric? so far.. ok lor, but i’m still pretty reserved bout it la.. haha.. will see how as time goes by..

As YL and I were talking bout it, we dun feel that we are in a foreign land? like it’s travelling, but it’s ze yang lor.. yea, the fact that we are in Phoenix still hasnt sunk in.. when will it? i’m in the Land of the Free, but it pretty much feels like it’s another Singapore, with more diversity, lesser Asians, but then again, we are not that particularly close with most are we? So is this globalization? When cultures and places are commodified, where i cant really find the difference despite the fact that i have travelled hundred of miles, crossed borders, into a total foreign land? Their language, their songs, their food, their shops, their places and their spaces, all i do not find unfamilarity… so is this where i should actually give up and go to mongolia (cuz nepal now cannot go la..) so as to search for that authentic other? the kind of raw native tradition that is not found in these cosmopolitan, commodified cities?? 

haha.. we shall leave at that shall we? till the next time.. i wanna check my emails.. i’m a city girl, a wireless nomad, one that wanders around but needs to stay connected to maintain her sanity?? 

 

here it is..

http://wanderinginusa.blogspot.com/

wish us luck!!

 

Frivolities of Life

To protect the the anoynomous, i shall call the intended X 先生. Well, this was yesterday’s conversation, it’s perhaps a proof supporting my constant denial of (what others known as) my ostentatious vocabulary, or perhaps a signal of the superficiality of a friendship, or perhaps one that is awaiting to evolve into a more profound understanding.

X 先生 says:

wah my friend trying to match make me

 

X 先生 says:

 

tmd

X 先生 says:

 

i feel like killing him now

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

haha..go for it!

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

u r nt young le wo

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

he’s tryin to be nice leh

X 先生 says:

 

wah

X 先生 says:

 

he nv qian bian can

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

haha.. who is the suay girl?

X 先生 says:

 

and its like so ji hong

X 先生 says:

 

lucky ok

 

 

 

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

guys.

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

all shallow minded idiots

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

beauty is SKIN deep

X 先生 says:

 

wah since when u start talking so chimly

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

haha.. tht’s another side tht u dun noe bah

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

my ang moh miraculously improved these few years .. and i can string the adjectives together to sound chim.. much to my frens’ complains bout nt understandin my blog..

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

i am a soci minor leh

X 先生 says:

 

wah

X 先生 says:

 

u copy and paste is it?

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

wah lau

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

thanks leh

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

idiot

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

u bring out the worst of me

X 先生 says:

 

haha

X 先生 says:

 

see

X 先生 says:

 

u really copy ar

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

which part?

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

no i nvr copy anything?! u think i so free right..

X 先生 says:

 

haha

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

-_-.. y am i conversing with u?

X 先生 says:

 

how i know?

X 先生 says:

 

wah

X 先生 says:

 

ok

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

haha..

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

cant u juz let me gloat?

X 先生 says:

 

i thought we were friends

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

yea! the best of frens!

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

hahah

X 先生 says:

 

eeee

X 先生 says:

 

u shan4 bian4 de4 nu3 ren2

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

hahah

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

no.. wat

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

best frens dun have to talk one

~Liz~ ..my dearest Japan..so Deflation’s over?? says:

i nvr bian wat

 

 

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It’ll probably be a long time before i can complain about exams anymore.. so WHAT THE HELL!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO FINISH REVISION!!!! ITS THE ENTIRE ECONOMIC HISTORY SINCE THE EXISTENCE OF MANKIND LEH!!!!!! AND.. WHAT THE HELL… WHY DO I CARE ABOUT ECONOMIC GROWTH!!!!!!

yea.. alright.. next week is definitely an exciting week! Lizzy is on the search of her other, getting away from her center, and crossing the boundary into the unknown territory across the pacific. Like Willy Wonka said, ” So many things to do, So little time..” BUT as Justin Timberlake says,” I’m Lovin’ It.”

 

Happy nest

My happy nest is literally empty! no doubt i’m certain i’ll get my little happiness corner.. but how come its so empty? everyone finish exams le meh? or am i early? but it’s already 10 wor.. *wonders*

 

Jason Castro

This week features Mariah Carey… OF CUZ being a fan i’ll watch for her sake..haha.. and ends up choosing my own American idol… haha.. heard david cook first, well, special, cute, ok, i thot i like him.. that was BEFORE i knew the existence of Jason Castro.. YUP! <3 Jason Castro!!! hhaaa.. perhaps he does sound a little like Jason Mraz and plays guitar like Jack Johnson.. well, hopefully i hear him sing Jazz.. it would really decide where my loyalty lies.. meanwhile, support the guy with the dreadlocks! Definitely oh so cute.. haha..

 

Delusionary

I’m really toooooooo freeeeeeee leeehhhh.. tt’s why i think i shouldnt stay at home… cuz the whole world now knows i am not studying.. though it didnt take v v long to edit and do up the pics.. oh well.. rummaging through my wardrobe (or the semblance of it) and found this black gown that i never wore before.. curious of whether i can still squeeze into it, i decided to do “period” shots with my dear K810i… Of cuz i wont post undoctored photos up.. they are HIDEOUS… all the above are edited with special effects using microsoft editor to hide my eye bags la, pimples la, pimple scar la, shiny patches la.. etc.. hhaha… so ta-dah! thus “romanticizing” myself creating the black and white period photos… ok la, i noe my hairstyle kinda clashes, too bad k, i juz cut it cannot do the bun up thing, and it really din cross my mind..

on hind sight.. it doesnt look period at all.. oh well.. juz let me try the editing stuff la, the full body one suppose to create a better period shot, but then my background.. sigh.. with my mediocre ad hoc and anyhow whack skills in adjusting the effects on the editor.. hhahaha.. dun laugh k, it’s for a tea-time entertainment…

 

Critical Idealist

why does it sound painfully like me? And i feel that it is the most confused of the lot, the most unneccessarily problematic, a self-actualized profoundness. I dont wanna be. I dun wanna create an imagery only to run away from it when it is going to be attainable. Why am I constructed to be as such? Why cant i be some starry-eyed that will be contented with what was found, and not constantly questioning the existence, finding it hard to follow, to practice with precision, ideals and dreams are perhaps meant to stay that way… In that world, i’ll be happy, in this place, i’ll always have hope, hope that one day i’ll be in that world that subconsiously i would never want to reach.

(note: YL… forget it if you dun understand ok, it’s really not impt.. haha..)

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i have been sick for the past few days.. not sure if its an excuse for me to sleep, but i have been sleeping A LOT. sleep until i feel like killing myself for sleeping so much…….. Sch docs.. quack quack… the med does not work. drowsiness is another excuse for sleeping.. one can still study while feeling sluggish… rahhhhh!!! i’m a perfectly healthy human being with a little cough and running nose…

Ideally, i should have been in the library by now. but, once again, i’m in the living room, listening to class 95 .. and BLOGGING.. T_T…

yea yea, i noe, so many things to settle, so many i haven settle, to think that i will be boarding the plane in 20 days is unsettling… suddenly, i really wonder if its a wise choice. The impulsiveness/adventurous should have stayed where it was, an ideal, perhaps i was never meant to experience excitment. Sir got me thinking, startled, questioning. He says of cuz u’re only young once, but how is gg there gg to help you? i was stumped. for once i dunno how to answer, all answers left me, was it a delusion, all the reasons that existed were some excuse again?? i hate the cross-roads. All my students are waiting for me, I cant carve out a career teaching them, I cant think about jazz seriously when i get a job. So, what’s it going to be? I am not airy fairy, i do not wish for anyone to sweep me off my feet and take me to wonderland. If that happens, all i have envisioned would be like a bubble burst, amounting to naught. come august, i might have nothing, then what happens? but then again, i should nt have so many questions cuz He has alreadi plan His route for me, but the essence still lies with me taking the chance, leaving it to chance, free will, and in-discernment. Life is juz fantastic isnt it?

 

Rear Window

To vouyueristic individuals trying to legitimize their knowledge. I got a B plus for my soci essay. that’s juz it, isnt it fantastic that you juz lay down what you have in plain terms?